Yup ..just because!!

P.S. I love Emma and she made this banner thing AKA jellybaby81

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[	music	|	sting - fields of gold	]

So i've utterly neglected this thing, i only ever used it sporadically when i was majorly annoyed or completely bored anyway (which in this case is the latter)..... oh fucccck, as i was typing this i missed my ebay auction *cries*  noooo, i so needed that 8000th black top.

Okay so im going to do this thing -->

5 places you have to visit before you die: New York, Paris, Rome, Venice, The Mediterranean Islands

5 things you have to do before you die: travel aforementioned places, live in Paris for a period of time and be able to speak French (very bad French no doubt), Gucci shopping spree in New York (vapid but oh so fun), complete a degree in something I'll actually use, be kissed in the rain at 2am somewhere romantic or have it occur in some romantic way(random but niiiiiice)

5 famous people you'd invite to a dinner party (dead or alive): Megan Mullally, Kate Moss, Marilyn Monroe, Tom Ford, Margaret Atwood
 
5 things you like about yourself: I'll do anything I can to help someone. I know what I want and I'm self motivated enough to do anything i can to get it. I'd rather be hated for who I am than loved for who I'm not, I make the worst jokes in the world and disguise them with wit. I have the capacity to be really intelligent (I say capacity because I feel realllly stupid atm, my brain is turning to mush... ahh so much for this being the positive answer)

5 things you dislike about yourself: I take everything to heart, I'm immensely self critical and could list 8000 physical faults alone. I'll never settle for second best so that will probably lead to life of heartache and disappointment (woo!), I'm really extreme so when I'm sad, i'm incredibly sad and when I'm happy, i'm over the moon. There's never any middle ground for me. I live with too high hopes and they generally never come true!

5 things you believe in: Fate. The Kennedys killed Marilyn. Karma. Where there's a will there's a way. All the nice shoes this season are being sold in an alternate universe.

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Waaaaah i feel so crappy lately, so am listening to the happiest song on my computer atm.. but it's really religious when im soooooo not. Plus it's the last song in the Sex and the City series finale (which always makes me sob). Its just after Charlotte, Miranda and Samantha start screaming when Carrie walks into the cafe, (this is when i commence bawling) and Carrie starts her final monologue:

Later that day, I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new.. and exotic... those that are old and familar. Those that bring up lots of questions. Those that bring you somewhere unexpected. Those that bring you far from where you started... and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship is the one you have with yourself. And if find someone to love the you that you love - well.. that's just fabulous. (oh so many more tears).

ah and the song -

Source Ft: Candi Staton - You Got The Love

Sometimes I feel like
Throwing my hands up in the air
I know I can count on you
Sometimes I feel like saying
Lord I just don't care
But you've got the love I need
To see me through

Sometimes it seems that
The going is just too rough
And things go wrong
No matter what I do
Now and then I feel
That life is just too much
But you've got the love
I need to see me through

When food is gone
You are my daily meal
When friends are gone I know
My saviour's love is real
Your love is real

Every once in a while
I say Lord I can't go on
Every once in a while
I get to feeling blue
Every once in a while
it seems like I am all alone
But you got the love
I need to see me through

Occasionally
my thoughts are brave and friends are few
Occasionally
I cry out Lord what must I do
Occasionally
I call up Master make me new
You've got the love
I need to see me through

Sometimes I feel like
Throwing my hands up in the air
I know I can count on you
Sometimes I feel like saying
Lord I just don't care
But you've got the love I need
To see me through

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[	music	|	missy higgins - 10 days	]

5 fab things that happened today:

- Work was quiet and only regulars came in so I was chatting to them all for ages cause they're niiiice. Go my customer liasion skills!

- The owner came in and was sooooo impressed by all my work lately and talked about giving me a payrise. Yaaaaaaay!

- Someone picked me up from work today, which was good cause I felt lazy and too lethargic to walk for an entire 15 minutes in the sun.

- I got to work with the coolest girl ever and we spent the day laughing at everyone else. She does the besssst impersonation of the bitch from hell at work. And she picked me up on her way to work cause we started at the same time. Best.employee.ever.

- I found my ipod - I was convinced I had left it somewhere and was about to go hang myself. Waaaaaah.

5 things that annoyed me today:

- My '5 fab things that happened today' list is all about work. Boooooooooooo.

- We're having a family BBQ tonight. *kills self* I hate polite chatter and red meat, so yay!

- Limewire appears to be running in Spanish when I clearly am not.

- My computer has about 8,000 problems with it at the moment and I'm about to throw it out the window.

- There's no Tim Tams left. And there's no chocolate cake. Difficult life I lead.

1. Hair colour: Dark brown

2.  Eye colour: Blue              

3. Favourite cuisine: Italian, Mexican

4. Favourite Main Course(s): Prawn stirfry... im so boring.
5.Favourite Appetizer(s): Caesar salad
6.Favorite Ice Cream: Chocolateeee or something fun like cookies and cream
7.Favourite Color(s): Black
8.Color I dislike A LOT: White
9.Favourite Past Time: Sleeping and laughing 
10.Favorite kind of Drink: Champagne, a fun cocktail or lemon, lime and vodka 

11.Favourite Fruit: Strawberries and mangos
12.Current Hobby: Drinking diet coke and procrastinating.
13.What I think would be the perfect kiss: Losing all sense of time
14.Things I look for in guys: Uh I don't look for guys.
15.The nicest thing a friend ever did for me: Ummm.. just getting random letters and sweeeet cards from my bestfriends.
16.The sweetest thing a guy ever did for me: Oh! This happened tonight. I worked with one of my friends and he gave me a bunch of flowers when he got to work cause he said that i seemed really sad lately. And i burst into tears cause it was so sweet and random! Haha im becoming so emo in my old age.
17.How cheap(economically) can I get?: Uhhh i get teased cause i have expensive taste. I just know what i want!
18.Perfume I like: Umm I love perfume. Im using Stella McCartney at the moment but I really love too many perfumes to list.
19.Favourite Flower: Umm either a mix of tulips in white, red and pink (cause it looks soooo pretty together) or an arrangement of white Calla lillies (um yes i am aware that most people have a one word answer on this.)
20.Favuorite sport(s) to watch: i HATE watching sport.
21.If I had 2 residences where would they be?: Paris and New York.
22.Favourite TV show(s): Will & Grace, The L Word

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[	music	|	rick james - superfreak	]

yay im going to a party on the weekend, held by a girl from work.
it's a masquerade party so i get to wear a mask! but i think instead, im going to wear a veil of black lace over my eyes like Lanvin did a few seasons ago:

and i'll have my hair out, cause it looks a bit weird tied back with the lace. And I bought a new dress today to wear to it even though im supposed to be saving. It's this black silk dress and it's just above my knee and it has really thin straps and it has a deep v neck and *sigh* it's so pretty and i'll just wear black heels with it. i tried to find a cool mask but everyone will be wearing one!

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[	music	|	Dave Matthews Band - Crush	]

Dream Shopping List

Wardrobe By Lanvin

Balenciaga Classique Motorcycle Bag (pic is off eBay so probably not authentic)

Mmmm round black onyx ring.. I'm so over diamonds. I was looking at the new society pages of the gauche noveau riche set. all the bling is hurting my eyes. Actually this is the most realistic of my list, it shall be mineeeeee once I find it.

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[	music	|	Missy Higgins - You Weren't There	]

So I just got back from dinner and it's only taken me about an hour to open my uni work and start it. This in itself is a huge progression, for it has taken me an entire week to get motivated enough to open it. By the end of this week, let's hope i've found the motivation to complete it. Why must university require assignments, particularly two due in the space of the next 3 or so weeks? Especially when there's so many more important things I have to devote my time to - such as downloading episodes of Will and Grace and The L Word (which my sister has gotten me absolutely hooked on), re-reading past episode synopsis' of The L Word to see what i've missed as i'm a new fan, rearranging my iTunes and wardrobe, putting on mascara, looking at Getty Images for new pics of Kate Moss' outfits, walking aimlessly around my house, eating food when not even hungry, making another cup of tea and looking up song lyrics. My schedule is full enough as it is.

Oh god, I was just listening to a song and the lyrics are so romantic I even burst into tears at one point. God, what's become of me? When I did become so emo? I make fun of emo people at work with Luke. Like one night, I was pretending to one of those psycho girlfriends that pine over their ex boyfriend and I'm like *picks up a bag of chips* *bursts into tears*.. "HE used to eat this brand of chips.. not this flavour though.. he *sniff*.. preferred salt and vinegar" *buries head into Luke's shirt sobbing*. We find the lamest things so funny. I think we even make other people at work uncomfortable by it, like the other day we were telling Karina about how we fucked up something on purpose so it created this huge hassle for person that was opening (who we HATE) the following day. And we were laughing so hard we were gasping for air and Karina politely laughed a little. Like whatever, as if that's NOT hilarious.

Anyway here is the aforementioned song from my long winded story.

They Weren't There - Missy Higgins

You breathed infinity into my world
And time was lost up in a cloud and in a whirl.
We dug a hole in the cool grey earth and lay there for the night.
Then you said, "wait for me we'll fly the wind,
We'll grow old and you'll be stronger without him" but oh,
Now my world is at your feet. I was lost and I was found,
But I was alive and now I've drowned.
So now I will be waiting for the world to hear my song
So they can tell me I was wrong...

But they weren't there beneath your stare,
And they weren't stripped 'till they were bare of
Any bindings from the world outside that room.
And they weren't taken by the hand
And led through fields of naked land
Where any pre-conceived ideas were blown away...
So I couldn't say "no".

You sighed and I was lost in you, weeks could've past for all I knew.
You were there blanket of the over-world and so I couldn't say,
I wouldn't say "no". But they all said, "you're too young to even know,
Just don't let it grow and you'll be stronger without him"
But oh, now, my world is at your feet. I was lost and I was found,
But I was alive and now I've drowned.
So now I will be waiting for the world to hear my song
So they can tell me I was wrong...

But they weren't there beneath your stare,
And they weren't stripped 'till they were bare
Of any bindings from the world outside that room.
And they weren't taken by the hand and led through fields
Of naked land where any pre-conceived ideas were blown away...

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[	music	|	White Town - I Could Never Be Your Woman	]

The Most Heinous Fashion Crimes of the 21st Century

- white shoes

- glitter.

- louis vuitton bags. get overrrrr it

- jeans that have embroided stuff down the sides

- ruffled 80s ra ra mini skirts

- plastic jewellery

- shirts with the company logo on the front... why be a walking advertisement

- ugg boots in public

- wearing something purely because it's in fashion.. gross.

- double deniming. if u wear jeans, u are not allowed to wear a jean jacket. it's highly offensive to my eyes

- animal print

- long nails or worse still.. fake nails

- too much make up

- trucker hats

- huge hoop earrings

- really thick heeled high heels

- anything Paris Hilton wears